she is legend

I have been nineteen for about a week now. My birthday flew by, actually. I woke up one day and I was nineteen. I woke up to mass texts and comments on my Facebook. It's nice to know that people, even those that I have initially lost touch with, still care enough to leave me birthday wishes. I spent the day with my boyfriend, and it was very fun. He loves me, no doubt about that. :)

However, now what? Now what is there in store for me? I have been on the tips of my toes searching for a job every day for the past two months now. Not just any job, but a job that will allow me to support myself. You see, in June, I plan, note: plan, on moving in with my boyfriend into his grandmothers house while she moves out into a new one. We have all our expenses written down and calculated so we know how much we should be earning, but the problem is, I have to find a job that allows me to earn enough.

I'm competing in the real world with men and women that have had years upon years of experience in the corporate world, and me? I'm just fresh out of high school and just completed my last job at a mall. The switch from a part-time mall job to a full-time office job is going to be quite, to say the least, brutal. I'll have a lot to learn, but I truly hope I can find an employer willing to work with me.

I'm terrified. I know I can do this, but it seems like there's so much baggage holding me back. It's time to break free, and take responsibility for myself and my life.

As John Baptiste Moliére once said, "It is not only for what we do that we are held responsible, but also for what we do not do."